Night Changes

It feels like my dad died a decade ago. I can barely remember what it was like before I was parenting a teenager. Did I used to willingly opt out of going out to public places? I used to have friends who I saw...regularly, right? And not via FaceTime?

Dreaming

I don’t feel many emotions when I’m awake, but I’ve been having dreams that have me waking up full of melancholy.

The Ides-est of Marches

What a weird year this week has been.

Dad feels

Content warning: Suicide, racism, homophobia, biphobia, and incest. Which is to say: discussion about my father.

Another Jellicle Year

It’s the end of the year, which is exciting but not exactly notable in any sort of round-number way because decades go from 1 to 10, not 0 to 9. If you’re worried about closing the 2010s on a high note, don’t worry; you’ve got all of 2020 to do what you need to do.

Things We're Supposed To Do Edition

1. Here's everything I have open in a tab right now but have no desire to read today because who can do anything today? I'm putting them here so I can just save my email for reference/reading instead of keeping these all around.

Things to Turn the Head

This is just going to be a list of things I've been doing to distract myself while recovering from surgery:

2017 Draft Amnesty

Before it gets too far into 2018, I want to do a Draft Amnesty on all my 2017 drafts – things I started to write and abandoned, or things I just never published.

I Survived the Hardest Half of 2017: Six of One

The top of the funnel is shit and I’m not sure why I bother looking at it anymore. The world is depressing, but somehow, seeing people fight the reality of what the world is seeps in and affects me more.

What a Long Strange Trip It's Been: Mass Effect Andromeda

Let’s get it out of the way: yep, I’m writing another goddamn videogame opinion piece and putting it on my website. Thank god 2017 is the Final Year, so if I have to hear about it at least it won’t be for very long.   But why? WHY?